Switch it up with these flat male figure art illustrations. Going for a surreal feeling with these drawings. Misplaced my dip pen, so I have been using microns for the inking. The backgrounds have been a mix of materials such as paint markers, acrylic ink, water-based marker. I pick by the color of the material for the background. I have been loving this loose style!
Been having these weird feelings that I cannot place, and the goal is to portray them in these pieces, because sometimes you cannot put words to something.
But you can also tell I have been having gay feeling lol
In my art, I create nude figures. Some are more feminine or more masculine in presentation. It depends on how I feel. Right now, I am dealing with a dysphoria swing, and I am constantly comparing myself to fit cis-gay men.
Because one of my main insecurities in dating seems masculine enough for others. I have a stronger desire to top, and I worry that there is a certain body type I have to fit. Even though I know feminine men also too, I am just being heteronormative. But as a trans man myself, I worry that I have to look a certain way to be taken seriously. So I end up comparing myself to cis-gay men and feel bad about my body. I am still pre-op and very insecure about my female anatomy.
But I feel like it is hard to talk about this subject because of the fearmongering around FTM bottom surgery in the community and how others body-shame trans men for getting it. Fuck, I’ve seen people body-shamed for bottom growth due to testosterone.
So how do I cope with all this?
By drawing naked people.
When I feel less bad about myself, I draw my body to celebrate it and mark where it is during my transition. But I have noticed that when I am more dysphoric, I paint more abstracted male forms. Weird vent art about how I want to be perceived. Sometimes the genitals are ambiguous, or there are none. Then straight penis.
