Category: Uncategorized

  • Music feeds my brain

    I had 69 days worth of hours of music listening in 2025

    How my music taste naturally came to me. Middle school was 2000’s emo and pop punk and show tunes, but then quickly I went into my hyperpop phase listening to Vocaloid and anime openings. To find then discovering Midwest emo in gym class to completely falling down the folk punk pipeline throughout the rest of high school but listening to Will Wood on blast. While trying to feel superior that I was not like the TikTok Will Wood fans but wearing the same hoodie everyday my senior year. To now listening to whatever sounds good to me.

    Recently I have been listening to a lot of Hip-Hop. It is a very satisfying genre to listen to. The music nerd in me has ample respect for how the songs are composed and how the artists make the different samples fit nicely.

    My politics have played a big part. In high school, I was going back and forth if I was an anarchist or a communist or both. Punk songs that were angry towards the government or on mainstream society felt like I had a place to fit as a young teen trans boy. Let us just say I listened to a lot of Laura Jane Grace when I was fourteen. Though a band that has always been my top is AJJ. Their songs have always seemed to fit into a different period of my life.

    But I liked hyperpop, because it was over stimulated and fit the void when I need a lot of sensory input.

    My music taste summed up is does this make my brain feel good, or do I really like how the lyrics flow and is an output for my anger. I am not person that lies when I say I will listen to any genre! I don’t bullshit about that.

  • Transing Your Dadaism:

    Gender is Stupid a Rant Of How I’m Inspired by the Dada Movement.

    Started with a deep dive into Marcel Duchamp and seeing his alter ego, Rrose Sélavy. Then later falling down another rabbit hole on gender in the Dada movement.

    But the wheels were turning, how the themes of the Dada movement can play into many gender non-conforming artists and my own art. How to be rebel against the conservative culture on gender. Especially within the trans community. Which people have set expectations that someone who identifies as non-binary has to be androgynous, a trans woman has to be dressed 100%her best and feminine, and a trans man has to be dressed so boringly basically and be 100% masculine. That the gender police will question one’s gender because they will refuse to fit in a box. Just absurd. Even in our own community, people bring conservative fascist bullshit.

    Mainly thinking about Hannah Höch’s line of artwork and how she would call out gender roles.

    Not only with the theme of cyborgs in dadaism, but because of the new plastic surgery and prosthetics, because of the injuries from World War One. It is a theme that has been in my head. The idea of adding parts to myself when I feel more masculine. To take off my breasts and add a bulge. The non-binary body and how some days wanting a different gender body. Themes that can definitely be explored more.

    There is a lot to explore and to rebel against.

  • Relating To Wassily Kandinsky

    Art arranged as music. It is something that I have not been able to get out of my head. For the past few weeks. I have been researching digital music making to college making.

    Well, how does that relate to Kandinsky?

    It had all started with my modern art history class and learning about Kandinsky and his different groups of artists.

    How they captured movement.

    I have been totally obsessed with and have done some deep research with the help of an old professor of mine.

    Mainly, because Kandinsky thought about his pieces as musical compositions. Something that I have not figured out is how to portray the compositions in my head.

    BUT! I did make a piece that is part of my recent deep dives for an upcoming summit inspired by the world of digital music making and how musicians use sampling. While I brought that in college form using found objects, for example, like old receipts, figure drawings from another class, random shiny paper I had, graph paper, and test paper for testing out acrylic ink. While layering acrylic paint to physically represent the many layers in a song.